Thursday 15 March 2012

Esbat Issues - Was it the same for you?

My second E post for PBP Esbat issues!

I was really looking forward to the full moon of March because I found a recipe for Esbat cookies to make for the end of  the celebration and I was excite to try for the first really true time. Then I choked.
Why? Because I'm not quite sure on how to begin.
Growing up with repetitive church prayer I could pray easily and sometimes just in robotic unison. Our Father...
I do not want that type of relationship with my deities. I want to speak respectfully and wholeheartedly even though my god is still the same God I have always prayed to, I want to include my Goddess.This is what an Esbat is all about, connecting with moon and Goddess energy. I feel closer to her now in my mid life than ever. I'm still in Mother mode. I have had my children. I have mothered and continue to mother them, yet I look forward to creating and raising more. A garden, my business, pets & grandchildren one day. I still feel the desire to nurture and help others.
I would like to give thanks and ask for help and guidance to become what I was meant to become. Hopefully, just putting this out there will bring me the answer I need.


I would love feedback about your first time. As a solitary it is good to have this forum to connect with.

Blessings to all,
Seren

4 comments:

  1. my first esbat? Holy crap that was a long time ago....I couldn't tell ya how it went. Probably how they all go. I mess up on something, laugh at myself, keep going, and have a fantastic ritual.

    Don't worry about it, you'll get it eventually. :-) As I'm rediscovering my path, there are a lot of things that I'm tweaking and revamping, so some of it is virginal. Just gotta work at it until it becomes as fluid as drinking.

    Blessings. ~)O(~

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    1. Thanks for that. It's good to know seasoned pagans mess up too! Did someone say drinking!? Maybe I need more wine ;)
      Seren

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  2. I have always had an affinity for the moon. I started by doing full moon rituals. Most of the time I just called the quarters and the center and sat quietly. Sometimes, I would enlist husband for the ...uh..great rite :). I also read my own tarot spread. The first step for me was to keep track of the moon phases, to align myself with the original months (moonths). Something simple as "today is the new moon" or "it is the 1st quarter moon" recognizes and honors the Goddess. As a solitary, your esbat can be whatever you want, simple or elaborate. I make an effort to celebrate on the exact astronomical date. Others are more flexible and celebrate whenever it is convenient.

    So, tell us more about these esbat cookies - nom nom nom!

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    1. I'm sure if your husband is like mine he'll be happy to assist ;) I will bake a batch for Ostara and share the pics and recipe.

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